TL;DR I have been facing the issue of focusing on things these days. This blog is not about any expert advice but this is me describing the pain I’m handling these days. Struggling with removing distractions and concentrating on the important parts.
Distractions are everywhere. No matter how much I run from them they always chase me. Uninstalling Instagram doesn’t help if YouTube is gonna cover up all the void from your free time. That void can’t stay for long because there are personal life distractions like breakups, anxiety about the future, working out on personality, and so many things. A few months ago, I found out that I’m feeling hard to concentrate and stay focused on my work or any chore I do, which includes everything from reading a book to having a general conversation with anyone. The major concern that I had in my mind was Instagram reels. I was thinking that these 1-minute reels are fucking up with my concentration level and my attention span is reduced drastically. I decided to stop using Instagram so that I can stay focused. That did work out for me but just for a week. After a week, youtube came in and started taking my attention. I started learning random stuff to recover the damage on my concentration power like morse code, revolving a pen around my thumb, growing a plant, playing with a digital piano, and whatnot. I tried and learned a few skills but after a few weeks, it again came to the point that I started feeling hard to focus on my goals.
Oh, GOALS!!! It reminds me that I don’t have my long-term goals in work or personal life. It feels like I have got everything I needed. It’s been more than two years since I have been working full time and I never had to struggle a lot. I think I was lucky enough but at the same time, my mind started forfeiting the value of struggle. There was a time when I used to work 12–14 hours a day and I miss those days. Ah!! that’s a dilemma I was missing these days when I was working way too much. I think there has to be a good balance between breaks and work. I will be creating my personal and work goals right after finishing this blog because I know I am so feeling so hard to focus that I won’t be able to complete this if I stop this abruptly.
There are a lot of things to complain about regarding this problem I’m facing. In the end, it comes to the point that I have to follow a few rules and instructions to regain that focus level in my life. It feels like I’m in this never-ending tunnel where I cannot see any light coming to me. I hope this time shall pass soon and I will have dozens of meanings in my life that will help me to rebuild focus and more importantly retain that. I have heard something but I don’t know how much truth it contains; the most successful people were not the most hard-working ones, but they were the ones who were most focused. If that’s true, I’m fucked up :)
See you next time when I’ll be full of thoughts again and I want to talk to myself. Bis Bald i.e. see you soon in the German language which I started learning for the sake of regaining the focus ;) Oh by the way, what about you? Are you still focused?
